ok, sometimes I feel like I’m in a continual state of writers block. I say sometimes I’m not a creative person, I really don’t feel that I am, but at times it just feels like I don’t have the correct inspiration, like I’ve had writers block for the past 28 years…

wow, I just coughed so hard I was unable to see… that was fun… stupid dry air..

anyways, where was I? oh yeah… not being able to come up with any decent topics to write about on here… that’s part of the reason there was almost a 2 week gap in posting (which by the way, I think it got mentioned once I hadn’t been posting ) I mean, I know I’m not terribly interesting, I tend to keep it that way, but I don’t want to spend my entire blogging existence complaining about how I hate my job. That would seem rather one dimensional. I mean, sure, I’ll continue to bitch about work (I really hate call centres. I really really do. really. really really.) but I need to come up with more topics… my post from last night I was quite proud of, and I would love to be able to have more rants like that, something that seems… I don’t know the right word… meaningful?

I really hate it when my keyboard slips into french mode.

That, and I don’t want to seem like I’m being selfish or self-centered (although, I Think the idea of blogging is more for personal need than anything else), I’ve had a couple of reality checks recently, and the main thing I’ve taken away from it is 2 things: life is way too precious to not try.. try to live every day as full as you can because it can be taken away at a moment’s notice; and the other is that sometimes I need to shut up and listen, because by not listening and just talking I can alienate the people around me, which I hate. My friends are probably the most important thing I have.

If anyone reading this (and I know you aren’t… when I log into wordpress it shows me all my daily site traffic… almost every hit I get is me checking to make sure my posts look right ) has any topics you think I might be good at ranting about, let me know. Anyone who knows me knows I enjoy at least a few topics… gaming, technology, politics, sometimes religion (those last 2 can be touchy in the wrong company though… sad that they’re so intermingled), movies… stuff like that… or even something that wouldn’t be something I might know about… I’m in a mode right now where I want to learn more, as much as I can… if I know nothing of the topic that’ll give me a chance to expand my horizons

hmmm. I’ve noticed all I’m listening to these days is the Foo Fighters. that’s it.

oh! I had a possible idea for a second tattoo… I was thinking, on my chest, on the left, over my heart, a human heart, but broken in two… not saying I’m heartbroken, but just kind of meaning that the heart is something real, and it’s very fragile (both physically and emotionally, hence the broken realistic looking heart thing) so let me know what you think… I personally love the idea, and I actually came up with it myself!

I need to find more people to play rock band with. I really do. The more people I’ve ever played it with, the more fun it’s always been. and Apocalypse Lincoln really needs to have a reunion

Anyways, I need to get ready for work, I have to leave in like 10 minutes and I’m still sitting on my bed completely undressed (feel free to start freaking out and running away at that mental image)